"Near the cross of Jesus stood His mother." (John 19:25).

The chemotherapy has it's side effects on me, it affected my legs. I was in so much pain that I could not walk properly, in fact I had to do extra effort to walk. I could not bear my cross any longer....it is here where our blessed virgin mother intervened.........to be continued

To meet the risen Christ you have to go through his cross first

I WILL NEVER FORGET THE LOOK OF THE CRUCIFIED CHRIST THAT I SAW IN EVERY PATIENT.

CF ISAIAH 53

Going Down the hill [part two]

Every injection that I took during my treatment of chemotherapy helped me to reflect more on tha nails that went through our Lord's hands during his passion, In every fear,in every burden I meditated on the cross that Christ had carried for me, so all the suffering helped me to really meet Christ thus helped me to grow spiritually. So I've learned that when we feel that we're in the desert,naked....it is then when our master start to clothe us with the holy spirit,with his word...only in silence we are able to listen to God......cf Hosea 2:17-18.

Going Down the Hill

I was so happy on my graduation day! after three years studying so hard, finally i had accomplished what I was longing for. But just eight months after this special day I've found out that I had two tumors that where malignant! Me and my Family were shocked.....Thank God I've had them removed and the doctors said that they did not touch or spread anywhere, so they caught them at an early stage. Alas I still had to go through six months chemotherapy. Every month I had to stay for three days in hospital.

So physically i was going down the hill and therfore also my carrer. But without being aware of it, spiritually I was going up the hill............C f Psalm 12:6

My new life in Jesus

My new life in this relationship with the Lord improved a lot and I began to understand the importance of the Scriptures in my life as it is the written word of god. You can't know Christ without knowing his Word, or as St.Jerome rightly said,"Ignorance of Scripture is ignorance of Christ". My marriage started to improve too, [me and my husband were taking each other for granted and this led to a few conflicts]. One day I was in Church and after receiving communion I felt someone Touching My back and inviting me to study in depth the word of God, when I turned around, there was nobody. So I started studying for 'A' Level in religion, after six months, I did the exam and got it. But somehow I was still not fulfilled, so I applied to go to University to study Theology.

When I Knew that the faculty of Theology accepted me, I gave up my business straight away and sold everything to study appropriately the word of God. Cf Ephesians 3:4

My first experience with the holy spirit [part 3]

All of a sudden that same man spoke again, and this is what he said "while we were all praying and praising God there was a person who felt like Fire all over her and this person is frightened, God is saying to you ,'do not be afraid, for it is I', the man continued, " who is this person?" straight away I pulled up my hand,because I knew he was talking about me. I can't explain How I felt, this was amazing, it was a pentecostal experience. After the prayer meeting, I went to talk to the same man, and asked him with astonishment what God wanted to say or wants from me. This man answered "God knows that you've been using your work to help people and finally he saying to you, 'I am here'.[By the way this man did not know me or even knew that I had a business ] I said to this man "but God's 'I am here' is so powerful'... as Iwas shocked and full of awe in God's Great presence, this reminded me on the holy picture [The one I showed you in the previous post] of Pentecost with the tongues of fire, I started to understand that, the tongues of fire we see in this picture are a reality, the holy spirit is alive. It is from this time that my conversion started. I started building a relationship with our Lord. I started to understand that when two or three are gathered in his name he is there ,present! The secret is faith my friends. Cf Acts 2:1-47

My first experience with the holy spirit [part 2]

As you may have noticed, I did not mention my confirmation, this is because the beauty of this sacrament was easily distracted by the way I should dress. However God did satisfy my eager heart in renewing my confirmation with the fire of the holy spirit later on in my years when I was already married with my daughter. It was on the 23rd of march 1998, a very stormy and cold evening, I went to our parish hall where I was invited. They started praying and praising the Lord [ did not understand this form of prayers]. While I was waiting for my turn to do the talk, A person [who has the gift of knowledge] was inspired to say that there was a lady who had a serious condition in her blood[this person was behind me] and this man diagnosed her illness and said that God is healing her. Immediately I believed and said this prayer in my heart "Oh dear Jesus I'm not worthy to witness to this but I do believe and I do not want to turn around to see who the person is, cause I don't want to be made a statue of salt"

As soon as I said this prayer a big fire entered me, it was so powerful and so strong I thought I was going to lose my sight, this frightened me.....to be continued