My first experience with the holy spirit [part 1]

While I was still searching for truth,I reached for the Bible once again and I started to quote from the Bible. However little did I know that in order to quote the Bible one must try to live it to the full, and at that time I did not know how to live it appropriately. At the same time the same call to evangelize was coming back again, But felt helpless about it as I was in the beauty business.There where times when I felt that I don't belong, in fact I used to give seminars on health and beauty and I always concluded that "in the end of the day Whatever the treatment one may doing, beauty comes from within". I felt it so strong that my motto was, "the world is full of Beauty when the heart is full of Love...and God is love!"One day a person came to do a slimming treatment, and she told me that I was like a hidden pearl for God[regarding the urge that I had for the Bible], did not quite understand her but later on I had discovered that this person comes from catholic charismatic group. later on she offered me to go and give them a talk on health at our parish hall where they meet weekly, I accepted after a year! To be continued.......my first experience with the holy spirit.

Married life [part two]

Although I felt the emptiness that my sister left behind, still my daughter had filled my life. She was a gift for all of us, in fact her presence had compensated quite a lot in the family. A grey cloud soon came over me and my family, when we discovered that my Father had a terminal illness. Immediately I fixed an appointment with his Doctor to see if there's any hope, but he replied that my Dad had only a year to live. So I planned that During that year I will do my best to spend as much time possible with him. Dad died after nine months when my daughter was only two years, I just couldn't bear it, I drifted again from my spiritual life but at the same time was searching for spiritual renewal. A few months after my fathers' death, I wanted to build my life again, first I Started off by learning how to drive and then started studying for a beauty therapist. Thank God I succeeded in both. I really did well in my new business, probably because in every person I did my best to see Jesus. Quite amazing that, what my Dad taught me it was all coming back to me after he died, he emphasized the love of neighbour and subconsciously that's what I was doing in my relationship with my clients. This was so rewarding, as love is like a boomerang what you give you receive, but I felt empty just the same because one big person was missing in my life......JESUS.

My Childhood [part 2]. Married life [part 1]

After my first holy communion,my life was peaceful, i.e living with my brothers and sisters filled my life, but this peace was shattered when one of my sister started having health problems. I was only ten years of age and this really effected me. However I did not have doubt regarding my religion or the existence of the Lord,but I asked why did this had to happen. Somehow I've learned to live with this problem, passing nights without sleeping properly and have to go to school the day after. my sister needed constant treatment.

In the meantime as a teenager i started having other interests like, dancing, drama etc.

When I was fifteen I met my husband,and we started dating, and gradually we decided to buy a home and fix a date for our wedding, in the meantime I had finished technical school, and did not continue because we needed money for the house. my mum was furious as I was studying languages to be an air-hostess instead I went to work for five years in a textile factory.

In the meantime I drifted from my prayers and from my daily mass, ended going to mass Sundays only, staying at the last row.

A few months before my wedding, I promised my sister [who was still ill] that I was going to hire a doctor or a nurse to assist her during the wedding, as she was worried that she might ruin the wedding ceremony unintentionally. Unfortunately she died three months before my wedding, I was devastated. I got married anyway[as i had already planned a small wedding with no dance just a dinner].

With this Blow in my Life I felt empty even in my new life as a newly wed. All this led me to reach for my bible. I started reading my bible and praying. During this time, I felt God within me calling me to evangelize but did not understand it so I let this call pass by.

I wanted to have children so badly, but did not get pregnant before a year and a half later. During my pregnancy I promised God that i will rear the child in God's fear and awe.

So God Blessed me with a daughter.

My Childhood [part 1]

I'm the youngest of ten children. I was brought up in a strong catholic family. Since i was a child, the passion of our lord had a great impact on me. In fact one day when I was only six years old my dad [may he rest in peace] took me to carnival. Instead of enjoying myself, I was sad because i felt that while everyone is enjoying himself Jesus was alone in Church. As a six year old I was referring to a statue of Jesus crucified. So my father had to take me to St.Francis convent in Valletta where as you enter you'll find this statue. I think this was my first call from Jesus as it was so powerful, instead of enjoying myself with the masquerade, I enjoyed my stay with Jesus. One day I asked my dad, "what can i do to kiss Jesus, to hug him and to have him close to my heart?". my dad answered with a gentle smile, "if you want to have Jesus close to your heart always receive him in the Eucharist later on [as i had to do my first holy communion yet],and to hug him and kiss him he showed me a person with special needs,he said "look! there is Jesus"

The day that I was going to do my first holy communion was so special for me, i really felt close to Jesus. When I received him, immediately, I started praying and mentioning a list of people that I promised my prayers to. [part 1] Cf Psalm 139:13-16

I THIRST 4 SOULS [Introduction]

my brothers and sisters in christ,my name is doreen vella, I come from Malta. My intention for my Blog is that you will come to know what our Lady is doing in Malta her messages but most of all for conversion in the world. We all know that we are living in a modern world,and most of humanity is so busy planning for the future, for their career etc there is so much going on in life and we tend to drift, from the river that satifies our thirst and our needs-Jesus Christ. I can tell you He's alive and he loves every one of us, UNCONDTIONALLY. His Love for humanity never fails, through the intercession of his mother mary and with her, they are saying to us, I thirst for you...... they are waiting for us but first we need to change our ways, our hearts and give our life to them ...It is all worth it, all you need is to say yes! later on I will post my story to you in the meantime may God Be With you always.